I know now...

August 26, 2005; 07:22 P.M.

I always had the intuition, i always thought of it. You never admitted it, but now I know. I wish i heard it straight from you. I wish you'd let me know, what ever is your reason of delaying it, it doen'st matter anymore. It is done. No matter what you do, it's over.You let it happen. I was not lost, you let me go. All that I want to say now, is i'm finally over with you. It will be pointless to hope anymore. I have just lost my trust in you.

I didn't like the idea that you have to put God in the middle of this. Because in the first place you followed your desire. It's about you and me. It will be very good of me to still be kind with you.. Maybe that makes me different than anyone else. Everyday I learned new things. I wished to learn it from you but you didn't take time because you were afraid to face me. Thanks to the concerned people who helped me up to my feet.

I wish i'll come to the time where I won't have to think of you anymore. I am just dismayed. Sorry, at least I know now what to feel. I'll be over this phase soon. Now I know, it's because of her.